Ask yourself honestly if your revulsion over jacking off to gay porn is "you" or the result of some illogical but powerful societal pressures that you internalized. But don't try to tell a Republcvan that, even one that is foot-tapping at you from the next stall in the airport men's room - readers who don't get the reference, Google Larry Craig.īeyond religious guilt, there is abundant societal pressure - from playground taunts about being a "fag" to adults who look down their nose at gays. It is notable to me that not one word of Jesus' teachings can be characterized as anti-gay research that for some fascinating studies about how Jesus accepted someone who had a gay lover and never mentioned it. Certain Christians and certainly the "Christian-right" condemn it. It can change over time or due to circumstance.Ī lot of the guilt (like the post-orgasm self-loathing you felt) is not natural at all, but is imposed on us externally by parental pressure, social pressures and/or religious training (Judaism, Christianity and Islam all condemn homosexual practices, which have been around as long as humans have been). The world is not divided into 100% hetero and 100% homo many, if not most of us are somewhere in between. Instead of freaking out about this, stop and do some objective research on the sexual preference continuum. What do you guys recommend? Shall I lay off the porn?
Also I still fantasize about my highschool crush even though she's married. If I see one pass by I have to check them out and when it comes time to settle down I want to be with a girl. Girls on the other hand are so attractive to me. But I do find shemale attractive though, because here, there are really gorgeous feminine shemales. I don't fantasize about guys, nor do I want to be in a relationship with a guy. But straight away I felt guilty and depressed.Ĭan anyone please tell me what's going on? I'm being honest, I don't find guys attractive at all. After a while of hesitation I decided to jerk off and I did. It made me rock hard like I haven't had in a long time.
I decided to click it and opened the first porn. She was quite feminine so I decided to try it but I felt so guilty but eventually I came to realize that I'm not interested in a relationship with a shemale and it was just the sex.Īnyway, tonight I was browsing porn on internet and came across gay section. My story began about 5 years ago when a friend of mine made me hook up with a shemale. But I have seen few seconds of gay porn before.
First of all I don't watch gay porn nor do I fantasize about guys.